So the other day I was geeked up because I found J.H. They way it happened I just knew it was a GOD THING. But who knows it may be. I can hear God saying slow down. But I think ya girls mouth is going to get her in trouble. I say exactly what I think, when I want to. I dont know where it came from. But again I love him. I know I do. But I dont want to be stupid either. What woman waits around for a man to get rid of his current baggage to be with her. Is this serious? I am calling BS already. My friend says give it 3 to 6 months. I think 3 is good enough for me.
I have had way too much time to think this summer. I mean every time someone says something to me I sit and dissect it. Tear it apart. One day I was all into the Ms. Miss Mr. Mister and Mrs.???????? I was lost. And I even had the people in the car puzzled. Just yesterday I Was emailing a friend and saying that I Was doing anything I Was shooting the breeze. Now then I am wondering how do u really shoot the breeze. Thats not possible. Then today I started freaking myself out because I Was talking to a friend on messenger and i was thinking she isnt responding to me because she is talking to "him" and I was correct. yea I have been feeling weird lately. I need to go back to work. I have one more week of doing nothing even though I plan to wake up this week at the time that i get up for work so I can get back in the groove of things.
God is love.........................................
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Knight in Shining Armour
okay so I have returned back to Atlanta from my trip to Memphis. i was there for 5 weeks. The first two seem like they were a total of 2 months. But to say the least my last Friday I was near in tears thinking that I am living home, my brother, my sister in law, and Loganne. But I had to go.
Every time I am home I say at least one time I wonder where Jason Hughes is. This was my boyfriend from my senior year and freshman year of college. Any guy that respects that I am trying to live a saved life and not push it beyond the tollerable limits was my type of guy. So I had one chance to ask a friend of a cousin where he was but I thought that was way to desperate. The last Sunday that I am home I was walking back to the balcony from taking my niece to see my mom during Sunday morning worship. I am walking and I look up and see Jasons' close friend. I stopped and hugged him and asked how was he not to be rude but on to the main question. Where is Jason? He states that Jason actually lives near my mom and that he was fine. he asks for my number and says that he will get in touch with Jason blah blah blah. I told him I would take his number and I would call.
After I took his number I am thinking I am not going to call this boy because I will seem desperate. Well I left memphis Sunday at 2p.m in a caravan headed to Chattanooga. I had a 5 conversation that was great with my bestest roommate Sparka. So I stay in chattanooga overnight and travel the rest of my journey alone to Atlanta. I get back have lunch with another one of my best buds and I come home take a shower and lock myself in my room for six hours because I missed my room. So of course I am in bed with my laptop in reach and I am thinking about my mom and the phone rings. It was really freaky. so I say hello and she was like Keisha who is Jason? I thought I had wings and I started flying I screamed HE CALLED ME and she was like yes. He said that Faye Coopers son Robert told him that you were at church today and he wants you to call him. I take the number and call but a FEMALE answers the phone and I am crushed. She said you have the wrong number after her 3rd time of having me repeat myself to her.
So I hurriedly call my mom back to make sure that she has the right number and she had the number off by one digit. So I call and he answers the phone and I automatically hit cloud 9. It was like we never stopped talking. Its weird because we keep finding each other and we are still in love with each other. We have texted all day everyday since Monday. thats my boo. he is planning to come visit in 3 weeks and it was pretty freaky to me. The man taking the lead. He promises not to lose me this time. We have talked about distance, his kids, his job........alot in 2 days. But I am praying for the best yet trying to learn how to hold my tongue. I have said a few things that upset him and I just have questions and statements that I dont think are unreasonable but he.....................he doesnt get angry he just says we should talk later. So is this my knight in shining armour........why do we keep running into each other. Would I like him to be my husband? yes. Do I want to make it work? yes. Am I willing to make it work? yes. Pray for me..........................God is love
Every time I am home I say at least one time I wonder where Jason Hughes is. This was my boyfriend from my senior year and freshman year of college. Any guy that respects that I am trying to live a saved life and not push it beyond the tollerable limits was my type of guy. So I had one chance to ask a friend of a cousin where he was but I thought that was way to desperate. The last Sunday that I am home I was walking back to the balcony from taking my niece to see my mom during Sunday morning worship. I am walking and I look up and see Jasons' close friend. I stopped and hugged him and asked how was he not to be rude but on to the main question. Where is Jason? He states that Jason actually lives near my mom and that he was fine. he asks for my number and says that he will get in touch with Jason blah blah blah. I told him I would take his number and I would call.
After I took his number I am thinking I am not going to call this boy because I will seem desperate. Well I left memphis Sunday at 2p.m in a caravan headed to Chattanooga. I had a 5 conversation that was great with my bestest roommate Sparka. So I stay in chattanooga overnight and travel the rest of my journey alone to Atlanta. I get back have lunch with another one of my best buds and I come home take a shower and lock myself in my room for six hours because I missed my room. So of course I am in bed with my laptop in reach and I am thinking about my mom and the phone rings. It was really freaky. so I say hello and she was like Keisha who is Jason? I thought I had wings and I started flying I screamed HE CALLED ME and she was like yes. He said that Faye Coopers son Robert told him that you were at church today and he wants you to call him. I take the number and call but a FEMALE answers the phone and I am crushed. She said you have the wrong number after her 3rd time of having me repeat myself to her.
So I hurriedly call my mom back to make sure that she has the right number and she had the number off by one digit. So I call and he answers the phone and I automatically hit cloud 9. It was like we never stopped talking. Its weird because we keep finding each other and we are still in love with each other. We have texted all day everyday since Monday. thats my boo. he is planning to come visit in 3 weeks and it was pretty freaky to me. The man taking the lead. He promises not to lose me this time. We have talked about distance, his kids, his job........alot in 2 days. But I am praying for the best yet trying to learn how to hold my tongue. I have said a few things that upset him and I just have questions and statements that I dont think are unreasonable but he.....................he doesnt get angry he just says we should talk later. So is this my knight in shining armour........why do we keep running into each other. Would I like him to be my husband? yes. Do I want to make it work? yes. Am I willing to make it work? yes. Pray for me..........................God is love
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
so.......................
I got this boost of energy that I want to do alot of things that I have been too lazy to do. But havent I had this feeling before and lost the race. Yea I have. But I know that God has great things in store for me but being lazy isnt going to get me there. Sitting on my rear all summer didnt get me any closer to my Teacher Certification. Sitting on my rear all summer didnt help me lose any weight.
So its time to get a move on. Time to graduate to the next phase of my life because I feel like i been in the same stagnated place for the 20 years. GOD is the head of my life. He is the director of this GREAT MOVIE starring ME. So he knew that I would be this lazy. He knew that it would take me 6 years after I graduated from college to get on the ball. We blame the devil for so much but its our job to move when God says move.
I am so ready for this next level. I dont think God would put it before me if he knew that I couldnt do it. I HAVE grown so much. not through any goodness of my own........But God thanks for all u do for me. Even when i seem ungrateful. when I Got those tests scores back and I failed that one test..............but I could have failed all three. Thanks for watching on me as I traveled. Thanks for providing when I didnt have. THANK YOU GOD. keep me encouraged. LEt the joy that is on the inside of me show on the outside. The JOY OF THE LORD is my strength. I need your help GOD.
I love you
So its time to get a move on. Time to graduate to the next phase of my life because I feel like i been in the same stagnated place for the 20 years. GOD is the head of my life. He is the director of this GREAT MOVIE starring ME. So he knew that I would be this lazy. He knew that it would take me 6 years after I graduated from college to get on the ball. We blame the devil for so much but its our job to move when God says move.
I am so ready for this next level. I dont think God would put it before me if he knew that I couldnt do it. I HAVE grown so much. not through any goodness of my own........But God thanks for all u do for me. Even when i seem ungrateful. when I Got those tests scores back and I failed that one test..............but I could have failed all three. Thanks for watching on me as I traveled. Thanks for providing when I didnt have. THANK YOU GOD. keep me encouraged. LEt the joy that is on the inside of me show on the outside. The JOY OF THE LORD is my strength. I need your help GOD.
I love you
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